Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Into a New Year

It has been a while since I have posted anything in this blog. A lot has changed for me in the past year. It has been a time for exploring and continuing to build a new relationship in my life. I never thought I would be in a relationship like this but he is everything I was looking for. I managed to find my best friend in a pretty unexpected way. It has been tough though because of our distance. Through this, I have learned a lot about balancing the many different parts of my life. I am far from an expert but I am much better than I was.
Patience has also become an important word in my life. I have to be patient and not expect to get everything I want or expect all at once. I want so badly to move into this next phase of my life with Alan; that I often forget to stop and appreciate the many wonderful experiences I have day to day. I am very lucky to have been able to continue my education and Alan is an amazing support to me. All good things come with time. I just have to let them come.
I am now half way through my second year of graduate school and headed into my candidacy semester. I must admit that I am scared to face it. It is not just that I am scared of rejection, but I am also scared that I won't achieve the goals I made for myself. After all this time, I am still so insecure when it comes to my artwork. Over the next few months, I believe I will really see what I am made of.